In the mean time...(1999)

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"Mother; Home of our universe" (painting #5) Krallosvierd series, 6' x 7' oil on canvas.

   The Copernican world view of the sun centered solar system was a secondary message from a man, Giordano Bruno, who was stifled, terrorized, punished, and eventually killed for thinking outside the popular belief systems of his (and our) times.  The knowledge of the structure of the solar system existed, of course, long before it was finally generally accepted by the powers in control of social order, but then only after it was reframed and spun to fit within the context of ancient beliefs.  As it is today, new ideas bringing into question the fundamental principles relating to life and the universe are put to the test by a similar inquisition-like system offering acceptance only to that which fits.

   Measuring the quality of new ideas against the framework of accepted and tested empirical data and beliefs often hides the great need for this fundamental bank of rules, laws, and ideas to be altered and transformed, as they will be over time in any case, to allow for new and creative thinking.

   The new and strange, and perhaps even seemingly insane (at first), new ideas can hold within their ranks the thoughts and ways of seeing that become the accepted and common sense notions of the future.  In the mean time (the possibly literally mean and cruel time) the radical new idea is put down, squashed, and otherwise ignored, particularly by those who have the most to gain by the continuation of the current popular paradigm.

    In many ways, the Earth (and the universe) is still flat, Zeus still rules from Mount Olympus, and the ghost yet resides within the mechanical physiology of the corporeal human being.

   Though people are not literally burned at the stake in modern times (at least so far as is generally known), virtually the same powers exist to thwart the consideration of new ideas, especially those calling for the transformation of the basic underlying principles by which ideas are measured and accepted as valid.  Errors, assumptions, leaps of faith, and choices of one interpretation over another without proper scientific experiment or logical proof, are morphed into concrete and virtually unquestioned empirical data.  In some cases, the proof and validation of a theory is based upon popular thought and accepted hypothesis.   Belief in the origins of background microwave radiation, and the interpreting of the red shifting of distant light, without any way of experimental confirmation, relating to velocity, rather than age or other factors, somehow become solid empirical data pointing to one and only one conclusion.  The universe must have sprung from a single atom existing in no time and no space bringing forth everything in the cosmos.  When this idea was presented in my Eighth Grade Science Class, it was immediately unacceptable to me.  Even today when I hear the terms theory or hypothesis rolled around within the context of the big bang, or even genesis, it is more important to me that people tend to make beliefs of these things regardless of where the data came from in the first place, and no matter now preposterous it is to translate the mathematical equations into physical reality.

   From that moment in that science class, I have dreamt of finding a new way of looking at the universe, especially one that made sense and related to the way things seem to work in the real world.

   This is the personal work of an artist who failed to fit into the arena of popular thinking, living, and working, and who has come to a point when this work is just about all I can really do, whether it can ever be called a profession (cosmologist) or not. 

   This is work that has been hidden and protected for decades partly in fear of attack or rejection, and partly due to events of harassment, abuse and angry verbal attacks.  It has also been kept in dusty folders stored away because even I wondered if it was not just a bunch of crazy notions nobody wanted to hear. 

   In that sense, I can console myself in not being alone in history.  But, considering the ends met by some of the most well known radical thinkers, should any of my work ever compare in any way, there is not much consolation in being within this esteemed company.

   I suppose this manuscript is a sign that I have finally come to a point at which the possible value of this work, and whatever chance there is that it might make a real and lasting impact in the world, or even just with an individual who might be inspired to do so, that it has become worth any risk.

   It is also true that I sincerely believe that the most popular current ideas in cosmology, science, philosophy and religion, will pass into obscurity sooner or later anyway, so why should I not engage in something that might possibly hurry this along a bit, perhaps while there is still fresh air to breath somewhere, and clean water to drink someplace, and while there are still whales in the seas.

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Invisible nature
Who could be so mean as to take a fish out of the water to explain what water is....

   "It is not really part of human nature to seek out and expose our addictions and choose to manage or cure them.  This is not necessarily a conscious choice to avoid or deny the addiction(s), more likely there are subconscious forces that keep us asleep to these patterns, needs, and wants which we do not really wish to change.  Even when the addiction becomes clear there can be avoidance tactics such as looking around at everyone else doing the same thing or deciding that it really does not make any difference what one does, etc., etc., and the habit rolls right along.  This is even more difficult to see if one takes a look at habitual belief systems, lifestyle choices, or everyday things that just seem to be a part of life in general, such as putting soap into the washing machine or saying "god bless you" when someone sneezes.  Some things are just part of life and our nature and these things go basically unexamined, unquestioned, and even unseen on a conscious level as a habit, addiction, or something that could be changed or eliminated, etc.  If belief systems are part of a large problem in the way humans live upon the Earth, and if these systems are virtually invisible and unquestioned, or very visible and heavily defended (especially looking around at how many people are a part of it, etc.), or if habits seem second nature and just a part of "the way things are", etc., etc., then the problem of transforming these problems becomes fantastic.  It is one big Catch 22 of a mess and the problem cannot be worked on literally because there isn't one.
  Even writing about this is quite a mess, but I keep on working at it, hence all the repeated themes in this site...it's all part of getting at something that is nearly impossible to get at....like asking the fish to jump out of the water to take a look at the water...while it's out it's so busy attempting stay alive that there is no chance to look at anything...and this is something like what it is like when a human being tries to step out of the Paradigm, religion, philosophy, lifestyle, or belief system they live in...it's like a near death experience and there can be no real chance to examine the thing and only a rush to get back to where it is safe.
   Looking through history at all the human systems that have come and gone perhaps this is just the way of the world.  Systems are not easy to transform and rebuild.  Maybe they either rise or fall and that is that."

(for more, see #10:  The Answer) 

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